...MY BROKENHEART SPEAKS...

...MY BROKENHEART SPEAKS...

My heart has always been torn into pieces by someone unworthy of my love. I never recalled a time where my heart was whole and happy, may there be a time when i was happy but just for a short period of time. Until now, i really don't understand why people are fund of hurting other people, especially when that certain person really loves that person. Can't they resist from hurting other's feelings? Can't they be insensitive enough to the person whose loving them so dearly? My situation now is really hurting me so much. Its like there's no more room for more pain to get inside because its already full of hurts and sorrows which are caused by the people around me. People who keeps telling me stupid lies and a very obvious one. Who denies every single fact that i was telling him, without even knowing that all his lies are tearing me into pieces, tearing myself into small pieces. I loved him so faithfully but all he did in return was lie, lie and lie. He never appreciated my presence and my love for him, the times that i sacrificed my time for me to be able to be with him, the times where i tried so hard to be there when he had problems and times when i gave up the bonding between me and my bestfriend for him not to get jealous of my bestfriend. It was so hard for me to ignore my bestfriend's needs and the times when he was asking for some advices. I can't text him, talk to him or even go near him because someone was told to keep an eye on EVERYTHING that i will do. I thought that it was unfair on my side but the only thing he told me was to shut up and if i really love him i should follow his rules. So im forced to do and follow all the things he told me. I'm not a perfect girlfriend, i have my own weaknesses and my own strength but the sad part is my heart takes over my mind. I was giving him all the trust not knowing that he's cheating on me. It was too late when the time came that his sister told me that he was cheating on me since we started that relationship. He had another gilfriend besides me. I was so shocked when i heard that fom his sister. I was loving him so much thats why i never really opened my eyes to that thing. i already had a clue that he was cheating on me but i just ignored that rumour. I never thought that rumour was true. I cried the whole day keep thinking the things that i sacrificed, the people i lost and the bonding i've wasted just because of HIM. Why could he hurt a person who loves him so faithfully? Whose willing to do anything to make him happy and whose been sacrificing her bestfriend for him not to get jealous. Doesn't he appreciate any of those things? Suddenly, i realized those things and the kind of guy he was, i came out into a thought that maybe a much worthy guy is waiting for me, that maybe that guy will make me happy. He may not be perfect, he may also cause me pain but maybe he will be the type of guy who knows how to say sorry and to appreciate things that i'm willing to do. I realized that a right guy will come at the right time. Things like LOVE shouldn't be rushed if you dont wanna get hurt at an early age.